Season for Celebration - Celebration of Seasons

That title does made me wonder of the authenticity of the celebration. Say, if I were to ask myself to utter the next word that comes in my own DAMN mind after hearing the names, well see for yourselves;

New Year : fireworks
Thaipusam : free food
Chinese New Year : chinese crackers
Good Friday : confession
Wesak Day : nice deco
Independance Day : roadblocks
Eid-Mubarak : empty streets
Deepavali : street parties with friends
Christmas : christmas tree

And where in the world has the spirits of these celebrations went??
Down the drain for me, I guess.. Those celebrations were good times when I was a kid..
Strange to think that why we can't celebrate the way we did when we were kids? Weren't that's where the fun really was??

Then, why we (myself, in particular) change so much that those celebrations that has such huge implications in my so-called beliefs, tradition and motherland seems too vague to me now? Am I still mising those free pencil case gifts and of those kinds??

Or maybe its just that I felt love was in the air when I was a kid.. being loved and cared for..
And now?? The ones who gave those love and care, my parents of course, are staying far away that there are no days went without me feeling the lack of their presence..

Well, its hard for me to conclude this, but I guess it all revolve around Love after all..
and yea, those words I thought of are things I love about the celebrations hehehe :-)


nihil sin nefas

Working together - work in to gather

Vile concepts often misunderstood as heavenly calling by many, just another campaign for some and yet there are some who knows exactly that the essence of dark forces already at work and are being deployed to refrain and restrict these concepts from spreading.

As to why these ideologies are moving freely in this deserted plain, everyone knows why but acceptance has been in denial for centuries, i suppose the green note can actually work wonders..

Money, created to simplify the hunter-gatherers daily routine of food sourcing, has evolved to become the ultimate topic of the 21st century; is this concept brings peace or aggravates war?

Economists, whom supposed to be out for hunt of the best ways to curb and keep cost at its minimal state; yet their personal stake could be justified with all the costs they've been saving. What's life for them if not saving for their own and not for the nation?

In the end, those who suffers the blow of economic crisis are not the decision makers, or their acquaintances, but the mere peasants with absolute no relation or connection with any of what an economic crisis would mean..

Fair? That word has just been overshadowed by the might of money..
And we are suppose to Pray so that God will help us? in getting more money??


That means we are praying to God to help us bring Evil.. hahhaha!


Strange World, this is..

Finer things awaits further up the Age ladder..

Age, a mysterious dilemma that God had bestowed upon all of his creations. None can escape the curse of aging, for it marks the time soul is allowed to wander in this plain before taken to God's sanctuaries.

I too, as one of the Almighty's creation, feels the age creeping through my very bones and into my veins.
Once known to possess legendary speed that amazes many Grand Masters, now those are just riddles of the past..
Age defines maturity but at the same time, declines physical abilities.
Sad, when one possesses the ability to understand the purpose of life and what needs to be done, he or she would have lost the physical strength to accomplish it..

Isn't that unfair to think that only a certain few that realized it in the very beginning are the ones that excels in life?
Does that means that the rest are inferior than them?
What is the purpose for Human Beings then, if by being itself is not sufficient for continuation of the species?

Strange plan, God have..
Yet again, i'm just a crumb compared to the Greatness of the Ever Living God..
Bless us Lord, for i still dont understand..

Amen.

Exit wound kills the target..

Despite all I could have done, world seems to be just the same as it was.. totally ignoring my existence.. How did God create this Plain? or WHy would be a more appropriate question..

My comprehension of religious belief contradicts with realiy, or what is believed to be reality. I consider myself to be religious, for i justify my actions to be of a religious significance, for me alone..

For God has created a world where promises of Heaven seems to be but a vague echo deep in the night.. As for Hell, are we not living in one? Shouldn't this plain be a neutral ground for the children of Adam and Eve to nurture and prosper?

I've entered this realm seeking light, but i guess the only light i'll ever see is the light of me exiting this plain.. after all..

God exist out there, that's for sure.. but i'm not sure if He realizes that religions are using his name in vain..

God bless all..

Selfless Society? Selfish me?? Choose one..

It seems my path has met yet another crossroad.. held down by boundaries of gratitude, im forced to take a different path than what i really wanted..

Conclusion? Possibilism.. Can i actually take the other path and give a damn to the rest who have been dependant on me? Shall i give priority to my innermost feelings or is the cause justifies my denial of it? i am not self centered, but i choose to live separated from this Cursed society..

Who are in this society anyway? if i am one of the members, why then my thoughts are not being the norm of the society? Do i have to take drastic actions to ensure implementations of my idealogies? Would that not signals my separation from the very society i'm trying to change?

Love is a feeling, says the society..
Love is a decision, says pious religious guns..
Love is just fake... well i said so! and i have seen so..

Love is just an excuse for a male and female to come together and satisfy their selfish needs, since love is accepted as a just reason by the society. Promoting selfishness in the disguise of love?? Where the world has come to now??

Are there not exist anymore selfless love? Have God refrained any selfless souls to return to this Cursed plain? And what in 'goodness' sake I'm doing here in this plain of lies and deceit?

Society has a saying, one can only remove a thorn with another..
I shall 'play' too in this selfish game and show to the society, that i'm not alone in this crusade..
God have yet to bestowe right to separate souls from their host, but He did grant me abilities to break the very living of a soul..
It time to make use if it, for a just cause..

Kill the "Kill"

Expected SandStorm in Unexpected Terrain

Some say soul is separate from the body. Some say body and soul is but one entity. Some say none is true but consciousness is.
Strange is, when the alley we use to walk suddenly looks different and unfamiliar. Alien forces at work? Someone's bad intentions left in the air? or is it just that its so clean that we started to doubt it so much..
Most of the times, good intentions were never noticed. That's just because there's just too much bad intentions than that.

You saw a young lady walking all alone by the roadside and you know the next town is nowhere near. Would you stop?
You saw an old man trying to cross a busy street when the zebra crossing indicator blinking stop. Would you help him cross?
You saw a pregnant woman standing in the bus you're in but you have a seat. Would you offer her your seat?

The world is so saturated with bad intentions that, we live breathing in it every single day. maybe that's the reason we can't accept good things in life. No matter how good we may be, never once we're to be treated even, if not lesser.

Show them what bad is, show the world what evil truly is.. only then goodness will have space to grow. .

Is it sin if I merely showing the right path to redemption, clearing path to salvation?
Or am I just enjoying the moment of simply being evil?

This body won't move unless the soul decides to..
Plant a seed in the soul, create a Sandstorm inside, you'll see..
The plain body that never gave you any good till now, will be awakened! And you will feel as though you're someone else..

Decide, decipher, empower, act and react.

nihil sin nefas..

Don
Killl the 'kill'

Inevitable Accidents, Accrued Pains, but Hapiness paid in full..

Yeah! thinking of beginning with 'end' in mind - Stephen R Covey, 7 habits of highly effective people.. does he realise that many in this world actually born with an 'end' attached to them? probably not.. sucking on silver spoon the moment they came in contact into this world does not give them the privilege to scrutinize one who born with virtually nothing, even into the tender loving hands of 'parents'.

Many still holding on to the 'happily ever after' dream created by those who didnt live to it.. how big can a sin be, giving hope for something we truly know that it will never happen? wouldn't it be better if the pain is bestowed in the beginning, so that, in every step the child makes and manages to lease the pain, the child can be truly happy? isn't that what real happiness is about?

may it not be for many of whom i know, for even silver spoons are a sign of disgust for them whereas me..

countless nights of pain and turmoil, of which most have already been divided among two greatest of beings i ever known - my parents.. growing up feeling the pinch of latter life at early days taught me many things, things that made me of what i am now - partly not human i guess ;-)

Alas! do i bother for whom who dont bother of life? and its splendour? nay! forgiving is not my nature, revenge is not my purpose, but lesson must be taught..

of all the souls i have crossed paths, it is always the most unexpected souls that vibrates so much that it could shake the very foundation of my belief..

one taught me the meaning of bravery and chivalry..
another taught me the meaning of deceive and treachery..
yet another taught me the meaning of selfless love..
and now, i've met a soul who taught me the meaning of being pure, at times of great pain..

God, has sent them across this Cursed Earth,
so that whomsoever believes in Him,
would, at least, find a way to salvation..

for the one soul whom i have felt by heart but never met..
life's great, its just shying away from you when you do the same..
wheel of life always turns, moments you realize you're at most bottom, remember..
the Wheel has already moving to pull you up again!

Bravo!
Kill the "Kill"

Self sacrifices, silent protests, painful journeys..

They may not understand the reason of my silence,
For they may not realize that they are the reason of my silence.

Accused of being silence,
Silence, witnessing their crimes,
Silence, when asked for witness,
Silence, when there are no witness,
Except me..

Shall i kept my silence,
Even when i'm accused for the same crime?
When i am helpless to betray myself, if not others?
when i'm condemned and stripped off my dignity, for sin of others?

Silence is golden, for some,
Silence is a killer, some would say,
Silence is,
my prerogative..
my asylum..
my secret sanctuary..
the sound of my soul, screaming to be set free!

Silence turns to my prosecutors,
Moving towards them, creeping in their very souls..

Silence, its your turn,
show them your might,
bring them down to their knees,
for you are silence..

I may won this battle,
For silence is my greatest weapon,
my closest companion,
my bravest comrade..

As i continued my journey,
I looked around for my friends,
realization is mush painful than this endless journey,
for my friends are all but,
Silence it is..

Silence i am,
Silence in me,
Silence surrounds me,
as i walk into,
Silence it self..


Don
Kill the "Kill"

Shifting the future?

In a game of chess, amateurs always misunderstand the importance of Pawns and tend to sacrifice Pawns to make way for other conventional openings and neglecting middlegame strategies. This is understandable, as amateur players need to experience the importance of Pawns as they gain experience in battles and competitions. Hence, the true abilities of Pawns will start to surface and appreciated by the very player whom has neglected it in the beginning.

Effective Frontal defence is achieved by depicting threatening frontal offence and this can only be accomplished with Pawns. As such, the last line of defence the King would have to the end is also a piece of Pawn. End for the Paws marks end of the game.

Thus comes an argument, is it logical to sacrifice major pieces of Pawns to secure one or two places for favourite Pawns? Could that gives the same impact if a Bishop or a Castle being sacrificed for a late middlegame strategy?

As specific i can be, but in a general issue. I do not wish to underestimate certain Pawns just because they are in front of a Bishop and can be eliminated, but i am seeing the Pawns position, although carries only one point, but it has the power to stop a three point Bishop. Where the power actually lies, then?

Point to ponder..

Don
Kill th "Kill"

Social circles and private space..

Society, as we seem to understand, doesn't stand on its own.

Comprises of multiple componenets, but mainly comprises of humans, usually of same ethnic group as majority members, and a fraction of other minority ethnic group. While the major ethnic group may be strong in number, but that doesn't mean that the group would have the power to drive the society.

Largely society's controlling power lies on the ethnic or certain individual that has certain access or own certain resources that is essential for the society's continuing existence. This could be water sources, practised culture or even claims of divine intervention.

Yet, many society fail to understand that the failure force does not lie upon these controlling units, but rather on a different units or ethnics that does not have any controlling power over the survival stake of the society, but they would have the power to break and destroy these minorities which hold these controlling powers. These failure force units often been labeled as the bad seed in the society, mostly to disable their ability to start the failure sequence.

We can not run from these facts. Our society is not as stabile as how the leaders(units with controlling power) claims, but they seem to take drastic action to stop the faulire force units from being active.

Well, seems that we do have a clever leaders who knows how to make peace so that no failure sequence activated.

But, we all know, these are just a matter of time before the failure sequence activated. Or is it have already begun?


Don
Kill the ''Kill"

Live fighting or Die trying..

Patience, as an essence of self divination with silence being fundamental reaction for both heart and soul. Crucial first steps towards achieving nirvana..

but,
lived in ages of great mages and sages you did..
now is the era of sin and pain, war is raging..

Kids kill first and think later
Adults think first and kill later

which one is you?

a day in my paradise..

As i walk pass through the walls of massively created lies by humans written in papers binded together like slaves.. i wonder, are there any truth in this world? are there anyone speaks their heart and mind, still? will i ever find the one i've been looking for? or will my quest just fade off in time like an old rusted shield?

or is it just that i lack of certain wisdom to truly realize the 'one'? have i not learn enough, to weed off the bad seeds? is it true then, that my heart is still away ten years behind my mind? will i ever come to a peace.. with myself?

unjustice shall be blessed with the same, only then justice can be served.. in silver platter..
hatred shall be returned with more poisonous thorns, only then pure love will shine through..
arrogance shall be dealt with a wave of Excalibur, only then true modesty could surface..

for all i ask..

let me be your sword and take away your enemies..
let me curl away your hatred with thorns and drag it deep so you may love again..
let me rob away all your miseries, live only with happiness..

let me be myself for i cant pretend anymore..
cant pretend to be nice, soft, humble, wise, patient, loving..

I WAS NEVER AND NEVER WILL BE!

for this, no longer a heart for it flourishes pain and hate in every beat..
this mind never sleeps, ever..
for wat i am..
for wat i ask..
to live no longer that a day..
to the Most Holy One,
that i'd live just..

a day in my paradise..


Don
Kill the 'Kill'

The Arrival. Turbulence, time and vortex.

Space. The final frontier...
(who the heck said that?? love to meet'um)

Humans. Lost to fear on own kind, eventually adapted a tendency to rely upon nothingness by claiming there is something lurking in there. Damned souls? Unknown Overlords? Pure evil? Yet to be proven, despite that, the idea has somehow found its way deep into humans heart and poisoned them slowly.

Religion.

If living is not a religion, then, dying is. If surviving is not a religion, then giving up is.
if believing is not a religion, then, denial is.

Opposite always attracts. Maybe thats how religion managed to decipher DNA codes and stayed in, stronger than the need of home, food and even sexual appeal.

The Creator, if there is one, never interferes. The Seducer, if ever one, never keep silence.
All that is left are us, humans against this cursed earth..

Scribbles of mind, strengthened by heart, burned deep within soul.
Asasin's Creed.

Welcome to my world.

Stepping out,

Don
Kill The 'Kill'