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Thursday, November 18, 2010

Characteristic and Life

What defines a person's character?

Most would say its the person's religious belief.
Some argues on collection of experience while others would go with the saying that 'character itself defines the person'.

My opinion, neither is the genetic-based decision made while weaving biological destiny of a human composition, or the limitations of physical capabilities which creates and circulates certain reactive hormones, would truly define characteristic of, a person.

My belief, it may be contributed by certain of expressing accumulated knowledge and skills, gained from 'filtered' experiences in accordance to acceptable limitations imposed by DNA, threads of destiny; and this gathered force up to that specific point of time, illuminate a certain trait which, defines the character and the person as a whole.

Random probability? Given proper tools and means, this can be proven but then, I myself highly doubt the reliability of any social and psyco-analysis research done in past few decades.

For almost all so-called academicians tend to perceive journals as a mean of striving for higher position and cheating way through prestigious knowledge bound awards and recognition.

That, should vaguely describe my character for i did potray certain hatred towards journals and sense of betrayal towards glory seeking academicians which can be concluded that i may had rough time as academician myself in the past.

Or, does that simply words that I've created to elude my own self?

I dare you to ask this question to yourself.

Why do we, humans, have to give such importance on judging a person's character?

I believe, that is a question worthy enough to seek for an answer.

nihil sin nefas
Don

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Eternally, Love.

Shades of rainbow, mighty but graceful
Whispered to the willow, For the day was blissful

As dusk approaches, Night takes its turn
How Its lullaby touches, Depth of human emotion

When all soul lays to rest, that’s when I’m awaken
For emotion is the outmost, Curse yet i still yearn

Cruel, God was, Spread His Love, everlasting
Funny, I was, Not listed as His darlings

What Is Love?
An emotion, chemical reaction or a telekinetic explosion?
All I've felt
Solitude, grievance, emptiness or may be its just seclusion

Is God Love?
I don’t know, He’s too shy to show me
Maybe I fail to realize

Love is, but an energy
Infinite, yet just hearty

Teaches pests to poets
Changes frogs to songbirds
Grows a grain to glorious pearls

Will God spare, Some of his Love?
Why would I care! Coz He never did prove!

For im just a wanderer
In this world of lies
ShallI I be human, and surrender

All my eternal, just for a glimpse of her calming eyes..

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Devil of Development

Once, 7am at this part of the world brings about such wonders.
Never two 7am's were the same.

Greetings with sparrows chirping over the fence and refreshing scent of morning air will sure to awaken every single soul at that hour.

Those were the days where I can find morning glory blooming at almost every fence I can lay my eyes on and ladybirds regularly visit my room just to show off their exquisite overalls.

Well, all good things does have and end, and the end of this glorious start of day, wiped out by, none other than we, humans.

I fell in love with the morning, when i was still in primary. The first ray of warmth brings along its life giving magic. With it, everything seems to become 'alive'. Its a feeling comprehensible only for those whom have felt the same..

Chronos never did have a good reputation though, not only with his sons for He is a Deceiver, unlike the life giving Gaia. He waved through the morning and after just ten years, Chronos made morning to be my most hated time of the day..

No more sweet melodies of birds chirping, for now whats left are just crows, scavangers just like humans crying among themselves fighting over garbage cans, carcases..

Morning glory? Now those are just lifeless plastic window and grill decors.

My favourite ladybugs? Or for least the graceful rhino three horned bugs? Kids nowdays only knew them through display glasses in museum and ornaments, guess the humans prefer the dead, not the living.

7am now?
It'll start with annoying truckers honking for they've been driving the entire night.

Filthy car exhaust and muddy stench fills the air, chocking.

Sky? Always gloomy as if it would rain but never rains, except for some days when the air became thick with smokes and chemicals.
Maybe God just wanted to clear the air, cant bear His creation lost to pollution..

Only God knows how much I've hated these, cursed filthy greed of men masked by the name of development, which took almost every aspect of these beautiful creation of God, Life, that I've loved so dearly.

Greed of Men is bottomless, the Hole in their heart is one that can never be filled..

Monday, September 20, 2010

Immediate Recall of Complete Book Series - God

HEAVEN 10 September - In a surprise move, God issued a statement today announcing an immediate recall of His complete book series:The Torah, The Quran and the New Testament, citing misunderstandings and violence of "biblical proportions" brought about by many who have read the books.

In a written release, God stated: "You guys freak me out. I'm almost afraid to issue this press release with the way you tend to twist my words around. However, I am calling for an immediate recall of my complete book series. If you have any of these books please stop using them immediately. The words were meant to bring people together but clearly that is not happening. Do not under any circumstances burn these books, as that will only create more of what I don't want, including more greenhouse gas emissions. Simply put a sticky note on the cover that says, RECALLED BY GOD. If you have access to a hotel or motel drawer, please put the book in there."

Sources close to God suggest that He was moved to action by both the massive Toyota recall and the recent news of books burnings. God has grown increasingly frustrated by the acts of murder and genocide His readers have perpetrated over the centuries. "I had never considered a recall because well frankly, they didn't exist for most of time," God said. "And by my own calculations (which are the most accurate in the universe), the Toyota malfunctions cost perhaps a dozen lives, where as poor interpretation of my words has caused hundreds of millions of deaths."

In heavenly circles, the issue of interpretation has become a hot topic. When reached for comment, Archangel Gabrielle said, "God is stunned by what a literal bunch you people have become." Officials close to the recall said the books were written for a very different audience. People who were not very far removed from a world of stone tools and needed to relate to their world through story and allegory. "Let's face it, I used a lot of metaphor and in my defense, it was a very popular writing style of the era. But today, this seems to be more confusing than elucidating to my message of universal love." While some are excited about the recall, others complain that it has come too late for them. "Oh, great! Now you tell me not to take it so literally," commented Tomás de Torquemada, Spanish Inquisitor. "I've been in hell for five hundred years with zero chance of parol for burning a few thousand jews alive. I swear I thought I was doing the right thing. Where is the justice in that?"

With the recall news, many have been left wondering if God will issue a new book or simply leave publishing entirely. Publishing experts are quick to point out that recent advances in e-readers and the iPad would make a purely digital play the easiest way to release a new work. Others are skeptical that a new work will come any time soon, given the atrocities caused by past and current misinterpretations.

Some cynics however, aren't buying any of it. "My sense is he thinks it's a big game," said Lucifer. "This is all just God's elaborate publicity stunt to rebrand Himself as a guy that's not all about smiting people and turning them into pillars of salt - and I'm not buying it."



Hahahahahahha! How I Wish THAT was for real!

Don

Monday, August 23, 2010

Emotion runs deep within hollow souls

To think of companionship and loneliness, I do not exactly understand the invisible string that suppose to tie the person down that when the person went missing, the other would feel the urge to look up..

Living beings need to be close to each other, dead bodies frightens them. Wonder, if companionship is the ultimate emotion quencher, then why is that a dead body wouldn't do the same?

And to speak on the subject of souls within the physical body, humans still are scared of wandering souls, the so-called 'ghosts'.

If so, then does these combination of Soul + Body emanates some sort of metaphysical energy to compensate the 'hollow' feeling of loneliness toward others?

Strange 'device of destruction', humans are.
No wonder God created us last of all creation!

Since we're still in the topic of emotions and companionship, can't avoid thinking how similar are we humans, with common garden rat.

Born into a very competitive world where siblings had to fight over a meal, grow up learning survival skills more than communication and management skills. And when the right time comes, goes away leaving their parents, finds a mate, digs a burrow and stay there till they have pups and the cycle goes on and on..

Please Take Note: The example above is in no manner related to the term 'rat race'. Lets save that for bureaucrats.

Why majority of humans need companion and few don't? Are there any selected few that has some sort of inner capability to fill up the 'hollowness'?

But still, even if there are people with such capabilities, humans will never accept those that are different as one of them..

Afraid, of change.. Of the probability that the truth might come out..
Afraid of them who have the ability to think beyond the countless layers of lies passed down by generations of human race..

My opinion.., we all are just afraid of our own emotions.
Scared with the thought of being left alone.
Scared others will find out about out dirty lies.
Scared our bad habits will be made known.

Scared, because none of us are exactly 'clean' enough to be brave and speak out in the first place.

Sin, Truth will never surface without an act of Sin.


Nihil sin nefas
Don

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Purpose, and its true Purpose..

Any 'Matrix' fan would certainly know, the bad ass Agent Smith always utter that reality-defying word as often as he speaks, but Neo, albeit being the Chosen One, used THE word rarely. By the time he understood the meaning, things moved on so fast that the only next available option is to sacrifice himself for the greater good of survival.

That, is because Agent Smith knows exactly what needs to be done and most importantly, what is the True Purpose of his Existence, unlike Neo, who still stuck to his human emotional conflict, realize it not too late, but, fortunately just in time.

Crazy minds of Wachowski Brothers.. unplugged. apparently 'free'.

Though they are not the type of person you would expect words of wisdom or with halo above their head, but the question they've raised, remains unsolved for most of us.

What is our true purpose in this Cursed Plain?

Our remains are not exactly the perfect fertilizers for the soil, or that our biological body gathers mysterious essential minerals that need to be returned to Earth once we passed on.

Well, at least that shows we are here not live and die, but to achieve certain goal or target within the specified time frame given to us.

Ain't got no idea what's my purpose is, but Buddha did die planting these wierd concept into the thick skull of post-Neanderthal minds..

So, still, Purpose..

First of all, one need to realize that there are greater purpose in life other than the ridiculous cycle of born-eat-study-work-get married-have children-work more-retire-eat more-die, chronologically..

Realizing it is a pickle of its own, of course.. No great deed done without equal great sacrifices. Meaning? We have to compromise things that are dear to us if we choose to walk that path..

Glory awaits those walk the path of guts..

Inspiring words, but do those still suit into our daily lifestyle?
We still need to work, eat, pay tons of bills which only getting bigger, not lesser as we hope each time we pay.

Most of us don't even have time for our family, let alone friends and loved ones. What good would it do then, if we did found out our true purpose of life?

Wish I have the answer for that question; ain't one in those thousands of scattered prophets across hundreds of religions found it out, yet?

The purpose of this blog entry?? Not my purpose to explain :-)


Nihil sin nefas

Don

Monday, July 19, 2010

In Denial of Truth that was a Lie

An awesome documentary was aired, on the Shroud of Turin that believed to be the linen that wrapped Jesus' body before laid at the tomb, and the one He left behind after resurecting.

Human technology has advanced to an extent that they managed to create how would the face of the man wrapped with that linen cloth would look like, using 3D imaging and rendering softwares, models and techniques.

But, eventually someone have to ask, can anyone, i mean ANYONE, prove that the shroud was the one used to wrap THE Jesus?

At that era of Pontious Pilate, all criminals that committed heavy crime such as killing, betraying the country, rebellious, wanted outlaws etc etc will receive same punishment, i.e. a day full of tortures by whipping etc, a thorn crown made of wires then hammered onto head, will have to carry the cross right from prison to Golgotha, a rocky hill where these criminals will be crucified on the same cross they've carried.

Its where Church of Holy Sepulture stands, now.

Ironic, for all those unaccountable lives lost, none of the stories were brought to light, accceptance that they were criminals? What justice to completely ignore lost of such many lives?

Life of one who believed to resurrect seems to be more important that hundreds, or maybe thousands of those lost to the cross with no possibility to return to their loved ones.

'Let it be if ten criminals escaped, but never allow even for one innocent to be executed' - is what presumably the court uphelds but so it seems money can even buy court to prosecute innocents.

What more can we ask to the barbaric Romans, who would not even have the logical reasoning to distinguish between an innocent bystanders with a hideous criminal, and how many innocent lives been crucified and lost.

Sad, but true.

Jesus, Im not opposing you, but only if you could have come a bit earlier, many more innocent lives would have been saved.


Nihil Sin Nefas

Don

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Love, Believe..

Strange as it seems when I see people walking with their pets. Pampered, well fed, dietary and health are well taken care of and most importantly, Loved.

Funny I feel the same thinking how I was brought up..
Pampered, etc etc, and yes, loved.. Ain't assuming anything here, but the coincidence is truly undeniable, the chains on events don't leave much difference between me and a common household pet!

Or, maybe I'm looking at the scenario just from a narrow angle.
Could it be that Humans, in general, lost their deprievement of Love due to Ego and Alter-Personality that those who feel the urge of sharing, being human so to say, turn to adopting pets as medium to show Love?

Emotions, humans greatest weapon kept secret by many, often leads to fatalities than victories..

Napolean had the greatest faith and honour for France that he led his army to conquer two third of the known world, then. His achievements are well written and kept with great honour by the French government in Arc du Triomphe.. Still, can one Napolean justify the fear, horror and disappointment his 15,000 soldiers had when Death stared right through their weary eyes as they fall dead in battlefield?

Strange thing, emotion is. A positive feeling of one need to be neutralized with negativeness of many.

I guess it's the same with Love, for showing Love often leads to Hatred, Rejection, Frustration and Disappointment. Why do we need Love then? Is this a 'balance check' for God to make sure Humans keeps on praying to Him?

I find it Strange, though I believe, that my believe does not require all of my friends to believe in the same, for I believe in believing their beliefs, showing my appreciation on their feat for having a belief.

That is what truly matters to me the most, that they have something to believe, to hold on, till the end..

Nihil Sin Nefas

Don

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Relationships and Invisible Strings

Ain't the kind of post I'd be thinking, but guessing these issues need to be addressed as well, since, well, almost everything in this God-Damned World is revolving around these two insignificance significances.

Why humans are so attached to these non-neural mind connections, which in a sense only giving more restrictions and depression rather than freewill and expressive freedom? Children are bound to their parents, siblings to each other, husbands to wives and vice versa, uncles and aunts, cousins, nephews and nieces, and there are those society-ridden "unholy" bonds; mistresses, free-thinkers, swingers etc that believes hedonism is way of life.

If relationships and these non-blood related bonds were suppose to give a feeling of warmth, security and enhance the spirit of togetherness, why then the society still fails in curbing relationship issues that leads to ghastly crimes? Isn’t those are statements of fact that concept of relationships and invisible strings failed miserably?

Societies are somewhat holding to fading belief that certain tradition need to be kept close in order to keep the society from falling apart, but the question remains that were those values created some 12,000 years ago by the early societies applicable for societies now?

For Individualism seems to have much greater follower than Socialism, the concept needs revamping I guess!!

I do not believe a human have to rely on relationship and one should not extract or demand need from the other for their selfish sake, for these are indications that Socialism is failing, and I do not believe a person can live alone as a separate entity for social bonding is crucial for survival.

There exist a point of harmonious equilibrium in between Individualism and Socialism, and when the human race came to realize this, we shall see the rise of human race once again in this Cursed Plain..

Nihil sin Nefas

Don

Friday, January 22, 2010

God is One, why then Humans are so many?

Hah! It does seems that someone up there made a huge mistake by creating different homo-species with different characteristics and different languages. It would have been a better place on Earth if at all existed, the True-Sane-All Knowing-Rational-No Error-God 'created' one human species consist of one human race with one language, living in one God Damn big teutonic plate that will never slips or moves..

Say whatever name you all want to call God, I'll still call Him Freaky!

Yeah, Freaky is my God, because He always freaks his followers (and also non-followers alike)!! Freaky will do things in my life that i know for sure only someone with such freaking *** mind could plan all this!

And the best part, Freaky will only help me ONLY when im really truly freaking beaten up to pulp! That's Freaky Almighty ladies and gentlemen..

It seems that Malaysian government are NOT sending help to Haiti, MAYBE because they feel death toll near too 200,000 is trivial compared to banging b*lls on the Allah issue..

Freaky Almighty,
I pray to you, You better do something FREAKING fast before everything goes down the FREAKING drain!

nihil sin nefas

Thursday, January 14, 2010

The World as I know it..

2009...
memories never to return, well, why would they if I dont treasure them? A year full nothing, some may say, but what filled the gap then if there's nothing? Something must've filled it up to ensure the countinuum of never ending never ceasing chain of time and events..

2010...
As measured with lunar calendars, due to the movements of the Moon circling Earth, and the Earth circling the sun. What to call time of Sun circling the centre of the Galaxy, Milky Way of course? Wonder who gave such a "Mickey"themed name to that!

in a blink of a second, the world lost 200,000 souls in the Acheh tragedy.. and recently, in a blink of a second, almost 500,000 feared dead in Haiti. compared to the world population, those were just 3E-5 % (0.00003 %) and 8.3E-5% (0.000083%). Not bad at all, human race still can go on darn well. I guess number of births a day shoud be able to overcome that lot.

in a blink of a second for us.. must have been eternity for those trapped and lost their soul there. Gathering concepts of such, we, the human race lost quite a number of eternity i should say. Hence the question, where would these eternities be deposited? and lets just say someone alive managed to live through one eternity of such, did he/she just evaded death? Strange questions that need to be removed from my numb skull..


nihil sin nefas

Don.